So didn’t take the sleeping pill tonight, because it makes me drowsy as hell in the morning. But I need it because I couldn’t sleep. And even worse is that for some strange reason, I started to reminisce about my life. My siblings. Where I came from. Where I’m going. How goddamn absurd it all is. Why my deep-seated anger at the world has a pretty decent justification. Well, justificationS.
I brought to mind wrongs done to me 13 years ago. Why my brother is a brain washed cultist. Wondering if the sister I haven’t seen since 2006 is doing ok. I heard she got married. Sounds like she’s still a brain washed one too though.
Wondering if I should write a novel. Wondering if I can really get into grad school AND find the scholarship to fund it. Wondering if I’m moving in the right direction in my life.
Wondering if I should just take that damn sleeping pill already.
I’ll try to get some sleep again.
Good night, everyone.